My feet float just above the ground.
I found the perfect person.
And I know that you have seen this more than once on here, but I believe this is no false alarm. This guy has everything I have ever wanted in a guy. He's intelligent, extremely verbally interactive, attractive, witty, playful (but serious when needed), and I can't help but smile around him. No matter how upset, sad, mad, or anything other than happy I am around him, he gets me smiling with one glance. He knows exactly what to say or do to make me laugh. And the best part is that he doesn't even have to try, he is just himself and that makes me the happiest I have ever been.
I can't get over how everything fell into place perfectly. Everything about him and this situation just revolves around that one word... perfect. It went from a casual evening hanging out to being entangled in his arms/kiss. It wasn't expected, but I definitely was not complaining at all by the night's end. Even the moment of truth (next morning) was just as perfect as the night before. He assured me with a good morning kiss and smile. It was like living a dream. It still is.
Yeah... so. I have a boyfriend. And he's wonderful. That pretty much sums it up.
Sooooooo Fall Party Weekend is this weekend. That should be fun, especially with my special visitor. :] There will be lots and lots of things to do.
Other than the Alumni Swim Meet and Football Game, which will take up more time than I need, it will be quite an eventful weekend.
I also got my grades in for midterms, and they weren't as bad as I thought they would be. Of course, that doesn't actually mean they were fantastic, but they're manageable at this point. At least I know I can work with them.
Things are looking pretty good right now, so hopefully consistency will kick in for me, because I could definitely get used to this.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Sunday, October 15, 2006
let's talk.
So... it's been a good two weeks since I've written in this thing. I guess I have neglected it for a longer period of time, but the people who read this probably get tired of checking and seeing the same old posts. Sorry.
But isn't it funny how every time I update, it's because it seems I feel obligated? Ha.
Well, I am home for fall break and I must say it has been a much better one than last year. I guess the worst part is that I really needed to go home more last year because I missed home so much, but this time around, I had a lot more fun. I'm not saying that I didn't want to come home (because I really did), but I felt like my reason to come home was completely different last year. Funny how over a year's time can change your attitude about a lot of things. I have eased up a whole lot and have learned to accept things as they are instead of freaking out about them. It's a much better way to look at life. So, I pat myself on the back for that *pats*.
Plus, I made a new friend this break. He's a pretty cool cat. Speaking of which, it's crazy when you meet someone who pretty much sweeps you off your feet and you don't expect it. I just don't understand how you find the best people in the places you would never look.
Dammit.
The new house is amazing, I'm not going to even lie. I was really skeptical about coming home to a completely different location and setting, but it's really not that bad. I like my room and the house is basically sweet-ass. It's going to be cool living in for a bit. And I guess I should get used to it, especially since I intend on actually staying at home this summer.
Speaking of summer, at the beginning of it (after Grad Week, of course), I am hopefully going to China/Tibet!! Isn't that the coolest thing ever? I am pretty excited about the whole ordeal. I guess I could give some credit to Thy, because she was the one who brought up the idea. Without the suggestion, I definitely wouldn't have thought twice about it. At first, I didn't even think that my parents would go for it, but since they went to China when they were younger, they were all for it. My dad got pretty excited... didn't expect that reaction. I think he secretly wanted to go. Ha, silly Dad. Anyway, the trip counts as 2 class credits (8 hours, just as much as summer school). So, I won't have to go to summer school if this happens. And I get to go to another country, so I'm not complaining about this option! Plus, I get back in early June, so I will have the rest of the summer (about 2.5 months) to be at home, get a job, and chill out. This summer could be awesome.
I just love how I look so far ahead in my plans, yet I never get anything done ahead of time to help it. I'm such a procrastinator. :]
But isn't it funny how every time I update, it's because it seems I feel obligated? Ha.
Well, I am home for fall break and I must say it has been a much better one than last year. I guess the worst part is that I really needed to go home more last year because I missed home so much, but this time around, I had a lot more fun. I'm not saying that I didn't want to come home (because I really did), but I felt like my reason to come home was completely different last year. Funny how over a year's time can change your attitude about a lot of things. I have eased up a whole lot and have learned to accept things as they are instead of freaking out about them. It's a much better way to look at life. So, I pat myself on the back for that *pats*.
Plus, I made a new friend this break. He's a pretty cool cat. Speaking of which, it's crazy when you meet someone who pretty much sweeps you off your feet and you don't expect it. I just don't understand how you find the best people in the places you would never look.
Dammit.
The new house is amazing, I'm not going to even lie. I was really skeptical about coming home to a completely different location and setting, but it's really not that bad. I like my room and the house is basically sweet-ass. It's going to be cool living in for a bit. And I guess I should get used to it, especially since I intend on actually staying at home this summer.
Speaking of summer, at the beginning of it (after Grad Week, of course), I am hopefully going to China/Tibet!! Isn't that the coolest thing ever? I am pretty excited about the whole ordeal. I guess I could give some credit to Thy, because she was the one who brought up the idea. Without the suggestion, I definitely wouldn't have thought twice about it. At first, I didn't even think that my parents would go for it, but since they went to China when they were younger, they were all for it. My dad got pretty excited... didn't expect that reaction. I think he secretly wanted to go. Ha, silly Dad. Anyway, the trip counts as 2 class credits (8 hours, just as much as summer school). So, I won't have to go to summer school if this happens. And I get to go to another country, so I'm not complaining about this option! Plus, I get back in early June, so I will have the rest of the summer (about 2.5 months) to be at home, get a job, and chill out. This summer could be awesome.
I just love how I look so far ahead in my plans, yet I never get anything done ahead of time to help it. I'm such a procrastinator. :]
Sunday, October 01, 2006
once again
I am sick. And cranky.
And I want to rant, so I will.
Okay, so this was triggered from something that happened to one of my friends recently, but I just want to go on about it.
I don't understand how things "just happen". Nothing has ever "just happened" with me when I was under the influence or sober. I can't comprehend how people expect others to be like, "Oh, okay, well that's a valid excuse" to it just happening. It's not. It's really stupid. It shows lack of thought or responsibility. I'm sorry, but you obviously don't give a shit about the consequences.
I know I sound like a tightwad or a mother, but I can't even be hypocritical about this. Sure, I have done some stupid stuff in the past, but it's not like I didn't think about it. I even admit to hoping that no one ever thinks or remembers it again, but my brain was functioning at that moment in time. Hell, something I pulled 3 years ago is coming to bite me in the ass sometime this semester. Not everything you do can be forgiven by life.
I guess I just know a lot of instances when my friends have had things "just happen" to them, things became awkward or had really bad endings. One of my friends this summer had to be told by my roommate and I that yes, she was raped. She couldn't believe it and was sure that one thing led to another, but when she described the whole situation, she had obviously been raped. And she didn't even know it. She just used that stupid line as an excuse. So, what the FUCK?
Why is everyone so sure that being casual about stuff is the way to go about things? Why can't you just think about what is going on and actually say 'no' if it doesn't feel right? Why can't you actually put time into things before letting drastic physical things happen? I know that this is all relative from person to person, but I find this all a little disappointing. We're in such a rush to grow up, that we let things 'just happen,' and hope that it won't be bad in the long run.
Well, news flash: it usually is.
Just think about things.
I am tired of people not using the most precious thing they have. Too bad it's not even their heart.
And I want to rant, so I will.
Okay, so this was triggered from something that happened to one of my friends recently, but I just want to go on about it.
I don't understand how things "just happen". Nothing has ever "just happened" with me when I was under the influence or sober. I can't comprehend how people expect others to be like, "Oh, okay, well that's a valid excuse" to it just happening. It's not. It's really stupid. It shows lack of thought or responsibility. I'm sorry, but you obviously don't give a shit about the consequences.
I know I sound like a tightwad or a mother, but I can't even be hypocritical about this. Sure, I have done some stupid stuff in the past, but it's not like I didn't think about it. I even admit to hoping that no one ever thinks or remembers it again, but my brain was functioning at that moment in time. Hell, something I pulled 3 years ago is coming to bite me in the ass sometime this semester. Not everything you do can be forgiven by life.
I guess I just know a lot of instances when my friends have had things "just happen" to them, things became awkward or had really bad endings. One of my friends this summer had to be told by my roommate and I that yes, she was raped. She couldn't believe it and was sure that one thing led to another, but when she described the whole situation, she had obviously been raped. And she didn't even know it. She just used that stupid line as an excuse. So, what the FUCK?
Why is everyone so sure that being casual about stuff is the way to go about things? Why can't you just think about what is going on and actually say 'no' if it doesn't feel right? Why can't you actually put time into things before letting drastic physical things happen? I know that this is all relative from person to person, but I find this all a little disappointing. We're in such a rush to grow up, that we let things 'just happen,' and hope that it won't be bad in the long run.
Well, news flash: it usually is.
Just think about things.
I am tired of people not using the most precious thing they have. Too bad it's not even their heart.
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