what is trust

My trust issues are making my insides itch again... it keeps bothering me.
Maybe I don't trust you when you're away. I want to. And though I feel like I can, something inside keeps saying, "...what if...?"
I just keep thinking about what happened, what you could be hiding, what you could be doing.
Maybe I am just paranoid and need to stop, but I can't help but wonder... and can't help but be terrified of getting hurt.
I'm tired of it.
And I don't even want to go home anymore. Nowhere is fucking safe.
Not here, not home, not anywhere. My heart is constantly vulnerable.

I seriously need to find a new lifestyle or something.




Am I your match, or just a flame in the fire?